Keep the Change

I hate change, hate it, can't stand it. Change has never been easy for me whether it be coming to the realization that there is not and probably never will be an El Chico on Memorial Drive again or having to swallow the inevitable fact that overall shorts were not a good look. I order the same thing when I go to a favorite restaurant (even though I usually end up eating most of Stefani's because she always tries something different) and I get the same thing to drink on my way to work most mornings 1/2 Coke Zero 1/2 Diet Mountain Dew.

I like my routines and as a result am fairly predictable.

Tomorrow, I step away from a career that I have operated in successfully for over 14 years into a completely new business opportunity and one would expect that my anxiety would be at significant levels, but thankfully, peace is reigning.

These past four weeks of unemployment have truly been an eye-opener. I have applied for and interviewed for positions in my chosen career for which I am over qualified, but have not been offered a job. I have had phone calls to long time "friends" in my industry go ignored and un-returned.

Instead of allowing bitterness in, I had to try and see a higher purpose in these events. Was God moving me toward a new calling? What would this be? Would I be prepared for it? From the beginning of my job search, I applied for new and different careers, ones that I had never attempted. Did doing this before all the rejection in my current industry mean that I was more interested in doing something new?

I do not know what is ahead for me but I do know that it is not important, what is behind.

Phillipians 4: 12-14

Not that I have already reached the goal or am already fully mature, but i make every effort to take hold of it because I also have been taken hold of by Christ Jesus. Brothers, I do not consider myself to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: forgetting what is behind and reaching forward to what is ahead, I pursue as my goal the prize promised by God's heavenly call in Christ Jesus.

What spoke to me in this passage was the phrasing......"forgetting what is behind and reaching forward to what is ahead, I pursue as my goal the prize promised by God's heavenly call in Chris Jesus".

If you move forward truly forgetting what is behind, then there is no room for bitterness or doubt and if you are reaching forward then it is impossible to use those same two hands to hold on to what is in the past. And guess what, "my goal, the prize" is PROMISED.

Thats a guarantee to me.

I pray that I truly let all the old things fall away and they become forgotten because my arms will be fully extending...reaching forward towards my goal.

Boo-yeah.